That's why I feel so trapped. There is no "me" anymore. I used to ride horses but because of finances now, we can't afford it. It was my passion. I used to own a horse but I don't think I'll ever be able to afford that again. I just get so sad because my husbands life didn't seem to change much at all. He can still play video games and go bowling with his dad but I feel like I've lost everything about me. I don't know who I am anymore besides Max's mom...